Monday, August 23, 2010
Another boring day.
♥ 3:55 PM
Good afternoon.
Another boring day for me. Well, for now its not. Currently it is raining heavily. And breeze of the cold rain, makes me sleepy and hungry. Left how many days for school re-opens. I simply can't wait. I had enough of school holidays. My holidays are like normal days but it is blank without going to school, meeting my friends and study. I like staying at home but not everyday. I will go insane. Well, if I were to stay at home everyday, without going to school, meeting my friends, study and etc, the things that I would do, on my lappy and surf the net or watch tv. That's what I do during my school holidays. Luckily, there's camp, interact event, and of course meeting my friends. Currently, watching the YOG. Looking at the girls diving, I feel like going for a swim. Swimming while raining? I love it! Ha ha.. So fluffliness! Ha ha.. Having me saying that fluffliness word, suddenly, the memories that I had with my group during camp appeared. I swear I miss them a lot. Saying about missing people, I miss one person that I've haven't seen for many months. My father. Well, my parents are divorce. Well, during this months, my dad never even took his initiative to meet his three daughters. Well, if we were to call him, he will be busy with work. Busy with work or busy with that Bitch? I'm quite emotional if I were to express this feeling to my friends. As you can see, I'm the first daughter and the first grand daughter for each side of my parents. It is difficult to be the first one. Well, I can't change the fate of a god. There's a reason behind all this. During my parents were together, they were fighting almost every night and it made me sad it goes as well for my two sisters. But I don't dare to cry in front of my mum, relatives or even my siblings. I've been holding that tears till now. I'm still sad and angry. And after that hideous word had been said through my dad's mouth, and I were angry plus sad at that point of time. I almost burst into tears but I hold it cause I have to be strong for my siblings and especially my mum. And I never told anyone about my feelings till I found someone that I trust. Only this person knows how am I feeling. The angry and the sad feelings is still in me but I forced myself to smile whenever I'm meet my dad. I do miss him but I don't like what he have done to us in the past. But it doesn't affect my studies. I'm glad. No matter what happens, I will have to be strong for my family especially my mum. She's really special to me. I will treat her well, I promise. Typing this matter all over again, makes me emotional. Well, after that, I always thought that am I having a dysfunctional dad? Well, the reason why I'm thinking like that cause my mum has given him everything that he wants, and my mum has been a good wife to him all these while. And what else does he wants? And why he must choose that Bitch instead of my mum? Well, that Bitch ain't pretty. She's a smoker. Oh gosh! She's fat & ugly. If she were to be my step mom, I will never respect her as a human being. She should be respected in a rude way. And never do I, will stay with her. It will be a worst nightmare for me. I hope it doesn't happen. *TOUCHWOOD* Well, shall not write more. Should stop here. If not I will go on and on bitching about her. Well, bitch, you made me do that. So sorry. Haa!
Till here guys.
Bye!
&taking pictures makes me happy.
